My True Love

At 9, I felt really happy and joyful whenever aunt brought me to church. But i did nothing.
At 11, I made myself a cross and mum caned me, throwing the cross away. And I surrendered.
At 15, I looked forward to every mass in church. But I didn't realise Someone was trying to connect to me.
At 19, I longed to go to church. But I was lazy and fear loneliness.
At 23, I was heart broken once again. Finally, I called out to Him.

Every 4 years, something unforgettable happens in my life.
For 4 times, I was ignorant.
Thank God for giving me the greatest love of all.
Thank God I woke up the 5th time.
Finally I received Christ.

Swimming, cooking, wealth, family, happiness...
The blessing was countless. The grace was abundance.
I look forward for every opportunity to grow spiritually.
I yearn for every chance to shine.
I felt so in love.

But temptations came along.
Tribulations follow.
Satan starts attacking.
I start losing the momentum.
Am I dying?

Holy Spirit came along. She lifted my spirit.
Power, wisdom, inspiration, revelation, love.
What a spread! What great blessings!
He put me back onto the right path once again.
I realised my foolishness once again.

Again and again God has been calling out to me.
Again and again I reject Him.
Again and again He forgives me.
Again and again I hurt Him.
But He never stops loving me.

Who would willingly wait for me patiently?Who would protect me secretly?Who would forgive me endlessly?Who would love me unconditionally?Only God. Only the Lord.

Forgiveness is what I need to seek.
Repentance is what I need to do.
Prayer is what I need to make.
Love is what I need to spread.
God, please guide me.

The natural temple crumbled four times,
And succeed only at fifth attempt,
Unyielding even after a hundred battles.
With the Lord,
Let my faith remains in His kingdom in the same way.